I can't tell you for sure what is teasing me more. If it's school and all the pressure of the tests or if it's you. Your attitudes... I just can't handle all of this. So the best way I found to confront the world is by putting my music on and don't listen to anyone, because I'm really tired of this stress. Why do you keep on acting and doing this? Why does it still so complicated? You are being the biggest disappointment of my life. And I need to forget you. I need to forget that you exist. I need to focus on really important things. And, unfortunately I can't tell you you're important to me, anymore. Because you are not. You made me suffer a lot. The best I can do is excuse you, even without your remorse or excuse, and continue with my life. Forget you, forget everything about you.   So this weekend I'll completely forget about school, invite the girls to come and have some fun. Because that's what I need now. And that's what life's about. True friends, true happiness, true fun, free spirit of mind. Mum and dad are working all the weekend (why does this seem so ordinary to me?) and Emily and I will be alone. Sophie is going to my grandfather's. Emily and I are both stressed. Really stressed. But we have each other and I know I can count with her, every time. Today at school, Paul send me a message «you're so beautiful today, as always, I mean». I was like «what?!». Anyway, I send him a message too «thank you, I didn't even see you today! where are you?». And then I received his answer «I'm not at school. I'm sick, so I stayed at home.». And then I asked «so how do you know I'm beautiful today?», and I received his answer «I know because it's true. You're beautiful, so you must be beautiful today too.» Wow. I have no idea of what it means but somehow it made me smile. In the middle of the stressed and pressure, it made me relax a little and be happy, even if just for a while. Thank you. I also want to say «thank you» to Martha. She made my day today, really.